my dreads are backcombed. they arent pretending to be anythng they arent, nor am i. i happily reply to curious folks who want to know how they were formed, that my bestest friend in the universe spent fourteen waxy narsty, fun filled hours dreading the shit out of my hair.
lately, i realized i have been feeling a twinge of guilt that i had never felt before. i began to feel like i had cheated in some way, that i was ashamed of my methods of dreading. "i should have gone the natural route. that is the reasoning behind the TRUE sentiment" i even went so far as to take a pair of scissors in my hands and think about chopping in front of my bathroom mirror. but then i stopped to think...
why this guilt?
my dreads mean so much to me. but why such GUILT?
only recently have i been realizing the true wonders and connections between me and my dreads. my dreadlocks mean so so so fucking much to me. i have parts of erin (bff) in them, from making them, and the residue from all the beautiful hands that try to hold them and understand them and love them. they are like a friggin TIME CAPSULE. a treasure chest...my HAIR IS A FUCKIN TREASURE CHEST. k, how many people can say that :) my dreads and i are like a pair. we do everything together. sure i could have regular hair and have to shlep it everywhere with me :). but fuck if i dont feel happier making a big fuck you statement while walkin down the street. i have dedicated a big chunk of my life to not believing in society and beauty standards and this is the actual PHYSICAL representation of it. this is my action. well, not all of it, but this is my personal fight against it
and i love my hair. for more reasons than i can say
and i am proud of it :) as i suppose all of you are. and i think that dreadlocks are just that
when you are in a crazy-assed-love affair with your hair, that is when things are where they're supposed to be. that is THE TRUE SENTIMENT :)
of course this is only my opinion, feel free to disagree but i wanted to say this because i just recently realized this connection. and i wanted to share it with yall
and props to angel thane, black person, jojo faerie, and digital cat for holdin' down the fort :)