I'm so frustrated and sad right now. I've had my dreads for a little over a year now, and I love them so much. They are really coming into their own, and despite a large amount of loose hair, I love the way they look. They're even finally starting to get longer.
But my scalp is driving me frigging nuts. I've always had dandruff (the oily kind, not the dry flakey kind) and I knew that dreads would be a challenge, but they're a challenge I am starting to tire of. My head is constantly itchy, and no remedy I try (various shampoos, 'poo free, tea tree oil, etc) seems to be truly effective.
Also, most of my dreads are quite fat, some with roots that span large areas of my scalp. The scalp underneath those roots is HEINOUS, and the vigorous scrubbing required to get them even partially clean is fucking up the dreading of the roots. I'm at a point where mild scratching on any part of my scalp [THIS IS GROSS] yields a fingernail full of gunk, even if I've washed my hair recently.
I'm not really asking for advice (though if anyone has any wisdom, please share it!), mostly I just wanted to vent. I've read the memories thoroughly many times, and have tried many different things. I am very close to giving up and cutting them off. I truly don't want to, but I'm sick of the dandruff, and sick of being self-conscious about how gross I am.
I always intended to keep these dreads 5+ years, and I fear that if I cut them I will never start new ones. Also, there are many people in my family, and friends of mine as well, who dislike my dreads and have been very upfront about their desire for me to cut them off. Now, I would never keep my dreads just to prove them wrong. But at the same time, if I cut my dreads off I will be sad about it, and I'm really not looking forward to people telling me how happy they are about it, and that they hated my dreads all along, and I look so much better without them, etc. It'll feel like them spitting in my face. "Oh, you're sad? Well, get over it, we all thought you were crazy to begin with" etc etc.
I feel like I'm going to have to come to a conclusion about this very soon or I'll go nuts. Bah.