i miss my dreads :'(( Collapse )
they would have been two years in 4 days.
i really dont feel like myself without them. in fact sometimes i find myself running my hands through my hair expecting dreads to be there, sometimes i even forget that i dont have them anymore, until i look in a mirror. its a bit pathetic, maybe, but they meant a lot to me.
i wonder how they'd feel now, if they'd have more bumps and texture.. i wonder what new changes they'd have made and if those two monsters at my nape would have ate all my loose hair. i wonder if i would have had a growth spurt and had them touching my back, or if they would have shrunk up again and been fatter than they already were. instead of watching and feeling them make all those changes and advances, they sit in a box with my best friends hair, completely stagnant. waiting for my next set so they can be home again.
sometimes i panic thinking that i wont be able to start another set. maybe because they wont be professional enough, or maybe because as an adult i'll change, which honestly scares me to death.
in high school it was so easy to commit yourself to something out of the ordinary...not to say it isn't now, i just started stretching my ears--something i've desired since i was fifteen, and i see no reason why it would come off as unprofessional.
though who knows what the future has for me. its hardly about appearance, its hardly ever been about appearance. its more of a comfort thing, an "i like what i like" kinda thing.
hrmph. you're all beautiful. i'm completely and utterly envious. <3