November 23rd, 2010

dirty feet

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Hello again GUDU! I'm not on here nearly as often these days as I would like to be.. school has been taking up too much of my time. But aside from that, I am very concerned at the moment...the last two nights I have had dreams nightmares about cutting my dreads off! :( I'll admit they have been frustrating me lately, but I didn't think it was quite that much. I have pondered what it would be like chopping them off, but I never really actually thought about it seriously. Does this ever happen to you guys? Did you wake up in the morning and immediately grab your hair? I want to hear some stories!

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pray for nothing

Time line!! Way Picture heavy

My dreads are 3 years old. I have had one official maintenance done by the lovely Lish last month. So here we go.

The beginning...

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I made my dreads around dreads that had spontaneously formed. I had no idea what I was doing. I backcombed, but not nearly enough.

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Gone but not forgotten

My dreads only lasted me about 4 months..

After about 6 months of trying to make something work that just kept hurting, I finally said goodbye to my partner of 2 years. It wasn't what I wanted, but I think it will prove to be what I needed. I left school early for thanksgiving, spent one last night with him, and said goodbye this morning. I feel empty and lost. He has been my best friend and the only consistent thing in my life for the past 2 years, and now I have to learn how to be myself... figure out who I really am without him and if I can be happy like that. By no means is this the end, and last night he told me that it isn't goodbye, it's hello to the first truly healthy decision we have made for our relationship. I can only hope that once we have found ourselves, we will reunite and be better than ever. But right now, I'm just empty.

This morning when I got home to my parents house from the airport, I made the jump. I want my dreads to be something that happens when I'm happy and healthy. But, I also made my hair very symbolic. I left five dreads in the back to represent "Gone but not forgotten, always in the back of my mind" Because that's exactly how it will be. Anyway, thanks for listening. Onto the pictures.

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