Hello lovelies! It has been an ass long time since I've posted. It's been a pretty intense time of my life- graduating from college, grappling with multiple chronic illnesses, entering a crazy job market, getting hired, getting laid off, getting hired again, getting laid off again, relationship beginnings and ends, my first time living with a partner and the currently budding prospect of branching off to try to build a non-profit organization from the roots up.
There have been a lot of things my dreads have seen, and it is interesting to look back on what my hair has witnessed. Most people have grown and cut and lost hair this old, but mine still hangs from my head, and I can look at each rope like a rock core or tree rings. The hair that met my scalp 5 years ago is now only about 4 inches from my tips, and I have constant battles with waistbands, bra hooks, doors, car windows, and my partner's sleeping face. I've got a number of them that have weakpoints from when I experimented with a felting needle that have been knotted together as I think the hair that far down is too damaged to re-dread.
For the first time, I have been dreaming of and wondering about chopping them off. What my hair would look like, feel like if it was short and brushable. I'm frustrated with my sensitive scalp, which is prone to dandruff and gets irritated easily. However, it's hard to think of myself without my hair- it is so much a part of me, I can't conceptualize my image, my life, without long, heavy dreads hanging down my back. On one hand it is holding me back but on the other it seems almost the most compelling reason to get rid of them- not becoming dependent on my hair as an integral part of my identity was one of the reasons I took this path in the first place.
For now, I am enjoying them, the frequent compliments I get, the fun hairstyles I can create, and the comfort of a constant that has stayed with me through so much of the turmoil I've faced in the past few years.
Aaaaaanyway, I know all y'all are only here for the pictures, so here they are! I'm trying to stay as chronological as possible.
My lady gaga bow I posted a while back. I was going to make a video tutorial but, you know, stuff. January 2010:
The rest under the cut!( Collapse )