So.... in that spirit (he'd just watched Whale Rider), what is it in you that wishes to wear dreads?Tough question. I'm going to answer the others, cause I have a feeling I'll have some epiphanies in doing so that will let me answer this better. And obviously, I did. Keep reading.
And why is it that I resist you some. Not much, but yet, not none either.
Resistance could be due to you wondering if this is a choice I am making, or if I'm trying to conform. Maybe you're worried it could close doors, particularly job wise? Maybe you see it as a declaration of independence but still subconsciously want me to be your kid. Why are you resisting it?Where is it that I don't respect you in your wishes? And where is it you want to rebel against what exists already, what lays behind you? Or is it not rebellion at all but something other, maybe something spiritual?
It's partly a rebellion. I feel like more of my own person now. I’m much more confident too, even after three days. Anyhow, I’m rebelling against two things. One: society’s ideal of beauty. I’m sick of bad self esteem, sick of being dragged down by unachievable ideals (even though I harp on myself to ignore things like that) and dreads are a way for me to realize and contribute to my own beauty. It’s time to turn my body into my temple, instead of my torture chamber (a bit extreme, but realistic in some ways at some points). Two: myself. Like I said, I’m sick of all the self destruction. And I’m sick of all the little things that drive me nuts because I have control over them. In a way, my dreads are going to be my textbook for learning that I can’t control everything in my life. “Things will happen that I can't stop, and I need to be able to handle it.” (thanks torainbowaster on this wonderful livejournal community called get_up_dread_up.) Spiritual: I’ve given this a fair bit of thought, but not entirely knowing what I believe, I can’t really tell. I feel closer to nature, to people, to family, because of them. Heck, I just feel closer. They make me feel more pure and more open to life.
With Whale Rider fresh in my being, I'm inspired to ask you - How would wearing dreads make you stronger?
How might it put you closer to your being, to yourself?
Would it be a mere distraction, or a learning thing? And would the answering of these questions together be part of that learning?
Is there something in your mind which believes you'd be closer to Nature if you wore dreads?
And if so, where would such an idea have come from?
The contemplating that brushing our hair isn’t necessarily natural. But then, the question “What is natural” has to be considered too. Cause I would say it’s natural for us to use tools for various tasks, and hair brushing could fall into that category to some people.As you know, I love walking and being out in the woods, and the woods always remind me of nature (duh), which rings a bell with dreads. It’s just a connection I’ve come to make I suppose. And since I’m completely content, enthusiastic even, about that connection, I’m all for doing something to maybe take it to the next step. (If you’ve read/seen The Celestine Prophesy, it’s sort of like taking the next step in human evolution except that this is my own, personal evolution.)
Whew. That was a lot of “I”s. It’s strange to talk about yourself so much in an hour. Super Self Scrutinization. Yay for inventing words : P Any more questions Pops?
About a year ago. Just so you can put a face to a name
...and maybe hair to the face. Gotta love them trampolines!
Post-dread photos soon. My camera's broken, but I got a few shots yesterday on friend's camera. Nice to finally communicate with all of you!